1993) This is the second quilt Ive
made since my diagnosis of breast cancer in April 1993. The first quilt
was made during the time period of several surgeries (culminating in
a mastectomy) and the start of chemotherapy.
In both quilts, Ive broken away from a lot of traditional techniques.
Ive left raw edges exposed and stitched outside the lines. I dont
know whether Ive felt free to do these things now because of different
priorities, a sense of urgency to get on with new things, or because
I dont give a damn anymore what people think.
I do know that its been very therapeutic to make these quilts.
Especially in the first quilt, I took out much anger in slashing the
fabric apart. Much of the dark areas in it represent the early, dark,
depressing, scary, all-consuming days of this illness.
Ive had my mammograms done religiously the last several years,
but I was the one who found the change in a fibrocystic mass that had
been there for a while.
The mammograms never showed anything, and Im really mad about
that, because many lymph nodes are involved and the cancer must be quite
By profession, Im a musician. There is so much music to write
and play and so many quilts to make: I really do hope and pray Ill
be around to do them.